just did a mini meeting
Date: 7/28/2010 12:51:29 PM ( 7 y ) ... viewed 1391 times
in the bathroom with my As Bill Sees It book. Haven't really spoken to my sponsor in three weeks. She went on vacation for two and the last one I am forgetting to call. I called the night before last and left voice mail. What to do, what to do. I think get a local sponsor. I have a lot of work to do with relationships with women, that's for sure.
Still raw vegan. Man, did I have a craving last night. I felt it coming on when I refused to grab food before I left the house. I was all keyed up to make amends. So, I bought tofu, baby carrots, dried apples and drank water. Pretty sparse attempt at self-care, I'd say. In response to the craving I knawed on a raw ear of corn, ate a banana, ate some diced tofu, drank some water.
I'm on the other side of the Carrie Underwood remake of Randy Travis' song "I Told You So". When I was in Vegas, I used to sit at my desk and hear this song play and just cry. I knew my ex would just laugh at me if I ever asked him back. Here we are, he asked me back. I am stumped and numb.
Taking the next three weeks off from any interaction with him so that I may study for my August exam. Feels like the right thing to do.
Breakfast: tofu, strawberries, raw carrots, sunflower seeds. I'm out of food today and need to shop tonight.
I am going to a pot luck tonight and will have one small serving of something that is not raw/vegan. A planned snack off the chart. Let's see how this goes.
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